I keep circling,

Retracing my steps,

Looking for that thing I lost so long ago,

Like a criminal returning to

The scene of the crime.

But I’m the victim,

And I will never find my lost innocence,

But maybe I can reclaim it.

Today I resolve to end the trauma re-enactments.

I will find my true authentic self

Right here, within,

Encourage her to re-emerge

Without fear or shame,

Denial, or blame.

I’ll give her the heart that beats 

Beneath my skin,

And let her begin to live

And smile, again.

-jenn