Why are you hitting yourself 

Hitting yourself 

Hitting yourself 

Why you keep hitting yourself 

A sordid little game

That adolescents play

Not children 

Because children are innocent and sweet

But usually someone a little bit older

The wannabe bully on the bus ride home

Would grab your own arm and slap your own face with it

And say

Why are you hitting yourself 

Hitting yourself 

Hitting yourself 

Why you keep hitting yourself 

Sometimes I find I am stuck in a loop

Of nonsensical drama

And invisible moving goal post hoops to jump through 

And I felt like a dummy yesterday 

With an unidentified demon

Having his way with me

Torturing me with an unrelenting update of autocorrect

I’m a wreck today 

And just want to let everything go

Throw everything I own in the River of Timelessness

And watch it disappear on its descending twisted route to the sea

And quit letting people hit myself 

With me

And also….quit hitting myself 

-jenn