Mergings

I wake up in the morning 

And I don’t want to get out of bed

There’s nothing here for me

I can’t see

Anything 

There’s clouds of dust

From people leaving 

Everyone’s gone

How can this be

I’ve lived so long

And nothing to show for it

And now the sun is up

And shines on the autumn leaves

And on my garden, haggard from the summer

And all burned up from lack of rain

And I feel the pain of winter coming on

But suddenly like a birth pang

I feel my bosom swell

I see that I have milk filling my breasts 

To feed the newborn child

I will go and pull my garden up

And till the land again

And if everyone else is gone

Then quietly

I will plant the seeds for a winter crop

Of onion, carrot, broccoli 

And I will give birth

To what this life has sowed in me

So beautifully 

Through its constant mergings of love

And I will sleep 

And I will wake

And I will see

How easy it is for me to get out of bed

Tomorrow 

-jenn

 Useless Ideas

I sometimes want to run away

And right into you.

Are you there?

I thought you hung up.

Like today,

When skies grow fair and grey,

And big blue clouds well up against 

The shadows that I call my eyes.

If I were still in France, I’m sure

It wouldn’t be this way.

If I could see the Eiffel now,

I could think of all the power man has

To make things right,

To create a destiny,

With all my might,

As a woman.

But today I feel so weak.

I don’t need a tower,

Just a shoulder to lean on.

You’ve grown so quiet.

Are you still there?

-jenn

 If you can get it started 

A world will turn 

The atmosphere will blur

A galaxy will spin

You will have created

A universe

Of love and possibility 

Add some color

Stir it in

Allow it to take a life all its own

Then you see how love was made

And all creation

-jenn

 Night falls and everything from day is gone.

Nothing can be seen but memories.

Slowly even our remembrances fade away.

The darkness draws long.

Something else is fading away.

What will come and take its place?

What will you make of it,

The brand new dawn?

I’m going to close my eyes and sleep,

And open them while I’m dreaming,

To see the infinite possibilities of the boundless universe.

Now who will come and sleep

And dream with me?

-jenn

 These are the kind of days

I get myself in trouble.

Feels little too good,

A little tooooooo full of myself.

I spill out on the crowd,

Dare someone to say it out loud,

Say it to my face,

And someone usually will.

So I’m gonna practice now,

Looking into your eyes,

“I love you, too, Baby.”

Now what are we gonna do about it?

-jenn

 Something that I meant to say,

Something that I meant to do,

Something fell through,

Fell through the cracks of love and time.

I’m here today and now I’ve stopped.

A red light has me penned behind the wheel,

At the helm but I can’t go,

And now I know.

If you need to feel the something that was left behind,

Feel me.

Look deep into my mind,

My heart for you.

I’m sorry that I couldn’t do

Whatever it was

I needed to.

Something that I meant to say,

Something that I meant to do,

Something fell through,

Fell through the cracks of love and time.

-jenn

 You say “no” a lot.

I wonder what would happen if you said ‘yes.’

You’re letting your fears talk,

Believing their lies.

The truth is always ‘yes.’

You pout and gripe

From your boudoir

About how everyone has it better,

When what you want to do instead 

Is put yourself out there 

And risk being wrong

About being so right all the time.

What is the worst that could happen 

If you go for it?

Especially when you know deep down

That the entire universe is behind your endeavor.

-jenn