She gives me the evil eye

As I walk by.

Why, I do not know,

Or do I?

I take it like chemo

And direct it to the parts of my body that ache,

And let it kill the pain inside of me.

And then I take it’s healing force

And return it to her

To heal her hurts.

And does she know

I’m returning good for evil?

Does she care?

Will she see

She has been miraculously cured

Of something 

Because a random act of love

Has set her free?

I dont know,

But this I do

In remembrance of

The few loving souls 

Who’ve graced this planet

And taught me

It’s the way.

-jenn

 There’s a really good part of my bike ride

I like to take when I feel like I have time

Sometimes I chide myself 

And talk myself out of taking it

I tell myself I have other things I ought to do

But it’s the cherry on top 

(Like you)

Today I reminded myself 

I have time for fun

And I took that victory lap

And relished the idea

Of how good it feels

To smile and laugh 

To loop around the universe

With good friends like you

And I wouldn’t miss this for the world

We have time 

And relaxing and having fun

Is doing something 

-jenn

 Here are some things to say:

“It’s okay.”

“It’s going to be okay.”

I’ll say it to you.

You say it to me.

“I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

“Mmmmmmmmm,

Just keep doing it.”

We’ll practice it

Til we believe,

Til we get it goood and right.

“It’s going to be okay...”

“It already is.”

-jenn

 The price I’ve always had to pay is much too high

The stars are telling me about 

A better offer

It’s free 

Somewhere 

Let’s don’t go overboard today 

Let’s save something superfun

Like going overboard

For tomorrow 

Let’s just row our little boat

Merrily along the sky

Until tomorrow comes

-jenn

 I sometimes have the urge to retire

From being a good mama

And become a bad one

But I fear that would do

Enduring damage 

And so I cook, and clean, and continue 

To love

And be the one that is here for my sons 

To listen to them and respond 

Encourage them to go on

And be who they are born to be

But I write this to tell you

If you feel your mother failed you in some way

Please don’t think it’s your fault

And please try to understand 

I fail every day

I get up and try again (so far)

But it is very hard to be a good mama

In this modern age

-jenn

 Be yourself today

And simply walk away from those

People and/or situations 

For which /for whom

That’s not good enough 

For you are more than good enough 

You are beautiful 

Alive

And holy 

You shine

All the time

Just the way you are

-jenn

 What a mellow day!

What a mellow mind I have!

I follow the outline lazily with my finger,

Tracing the design.

It lulls me in.

I wade the shallow waves just off the shore.

All I want is more of this.

I long to swim,

Throw myself in without a worry or a care.

“Is anyone there?”

I hear someone.

I slowly see 

A man waving his hand in front of me.

“Can I get change for a fifty?” he asks.

I’m still basking,

But I yawn.

I see he’s only given me a twenty.

I may be mellow.

I may be gone.

But I still wasn’t born yesterday.

-jenn