I Miss You

I miss you.

But I guess

I miss the old you.

Life has changed you.

It changes all of us I guess.

I wonder if anyone misses the old me.

I don’t.

I thought of an old, old friend today,

And of the many, many things she’s lost—

A marriage, murdered parents, her career,

Two babies, and her own childhood.

Slowly life has gnawed away at her.

She takes a lot of medication now,

And walks around like a living dead,

And I can’t say I blame her.

I have not come close to walking a mile in her moccasins.

But I don’t know

That any of us ever have anything to lose.

I don’t know if the things we have,

Have us.

But I do know that we don’t come into this world with anything,

Tho I am not sure what we might take with us into the next?

But it can’t be anything physical?

I don’t know.

I just don’t know, sometimes.

--jenn long